Hey you, yes I mean you, what are you doing here? Are you here to escape your own life for a little while through reading about mine? I'm not so sure that's gonna work. Because to be honest as of lately my life started a pretty nice downswing.
When I was in America in 2012 I met the most perfect and wonderful boy I could ever imagine. And through some miracle we ended up together. After many ups and downs and almost 2 years of long distance relationship he came to Germany in February of 2015. However he had to return to the States this past October and ever since then my life has been kinda miserable. I basically lost the joy in my life. All the things I used to do in my free time just don't fullfill me anymore. I used to read, play computer games or listen to music. All I do now is work on stuff for university, clean or tidt my apartment, resort my things for the 100th time or binge watch TV shows but not for enjoyment, simply for having watched all the episodes. Everything seems rather senseless. I keep rethinking the decisions that led me here and I wonder whether I made myself miserable or others. But in the end I always get to the same conclusion. It's already too late to go back. I am too far gone to turn my life around.
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